Ramblings of an Old man

Well normally my Sunday morning goes like so, I go out to church with my Dad and his new wife, then I go to breakfast with them, then I go home and read and do whatever else comes up.. what made this time so different? Well this time there was no call to find out if I was going to church, no call, no church, no breakfast. So instead I cleaned house, and ran on the treadmill for like 30 minutes.

Later in the night I wrote an application for a friend that I said I would, and I talked to another friend who is growing closer and closer daily, Daniel by name. This guy is wicked cool. He is very thoughtful, and has an excellent sense of humor, and good spirits. He has been through a lot with his own business and life, and we just sharpen one another with our talks. I love my friends.

Still later in the night I got to talk to my “After midnight girl” Tina. She is very awesome also, we go back and forth all the time with stuff. She has an infectious laugh, and though we have only a few things in common, the stuff we don’t have in common provided some of the best debates ever. Again.. I love my friends.

Not much, but I am just trying to keep up with what my day was like… and until I start this with “Dear diary” or “Dear journal” I think this is a healthy activity.

Saturday I did a large portion of nothing, save reading and writing a dispute letter for a phone charge I got of 700+ dollars. Then I went skating that night, flirted with like 9 - 10 girls, cause that is just what I do. I can’t really help it, didn’t get much skating done, cause one girl in particular wanted to talk to me and I was all up for that. I might be taking things in the wrong direction with her unintentionally. So I need to back off from that for a while, at least until things change in my life, I am still learning to be a man. Also I want to be financially stable, sure I pay my bills but at the end of the month do I have any money left? Eh, change for the most part. So I am building my business and it is a slow process but I have learned that I am getting paid what I am worth, if I want to get a raise, I need to earn it. Not like in a job where you just get paid for being there. I want to be worth something, and in turn add to other people. This is my purpose, and my life’s goal.

So friday night I give my nephew a call, and tell him I am taking him and his new girlfriend liberty out skating. Turns out that, that particular night there is a radio station at the rink which I did not know about but whatever it hardly effected the night, and by no means is important to my blog.

So I get my nephew and his girlfried, a very sweet young lady, and I am happy that my nephew has found her. They make an extremely cute couple.

She doesn’t skate all professional like or anything but she is able to stand on her feet, I think she is there more so for my nephew and he desire to skate and hang out with his oh so awesome uncle.

The night was a blast, he showed me some tricks that he can do, and I couldn’t come close to doing at this point in time. He has been skating for like 2- 5 years maybe, and I have been skating for over 21. Now I never really specialized in any areas of skating, especially not aggressive skating, which is where his expertise lies. Make no mistake for the minimal amount of time he has put into the sport, he has come a LONG way, and he is rather impressive with what he does. However in a speed race, he would lose to me in a heart beat.

 Although there were some minor events in the night this was pretty much the main point of the night and it was AWESOME.

Last night I drove 124 miles to visit with my mentors and some friends it was an absolute blast. I got to talk/flirt a bit with the daughter of one of my mentors. She is a very beautiful woman, and I mean that in the way that encompasses more than just physical beauty, though she has that also.

I got some very good mentorship training some laughs, encouragement and just great bonding. I love my friends, and my mentors. They are worth more than gold, and they will never know how much I value all that they share with me. I am moving forward, with what they have shown me and helped me to understand, I am moving forward for them, for my family, and for me. No stopping, no quitting till I am done.

Ok, so I also DJ for a skating rink for all of their Christian events and such, not that I am perfect Christian, I have just been DJing this stuff for 10+ years, so ya. Anyway, last night I was called in for a “Christian” private party, yes it is in quotes. Not because they were not Christians… I have no idea if they are or not, I didn’t spend enough time with them, but you couldn’t convict them of it, based off last nights events.

 Normally the way I run the session is simple, I get permission from the leader of the group to say a prayer, have Bible trivia, and play only Christian music(not that the music itself is saved, or is even capable of such things). So last night I start playing the music until the leader of the group arrives. One song into things the “Music Master” comes over to me and hands me a mixed CD. Says just play this stuff. I get his name (Craig) and then put his CD in and abrubtly end the song currently playing (at their request). The song to takes it’s place… no lyrics, or anything else indicating worship of the risen LORD. I have no problems with this for the most part, but it does strike me as odd.

The leader of the party comes in and I run down my normal check list, I am shot down at every angle with a comment like “We just want to have fun”. This is the leader of the church group that is there. No prayer?!!? What is up with that? Someone suggested that they might have said it before they came. Get real, if you TRULY believe that Jesus is God(as I do) then you would want to pray to Him every opportunity that arises. No Bible trivia, again not a huge deal, some of them were kids and potentially didn’t know their Bible all that well. However with all the additions it was clear that they didn’t want Jesus to be a part of their night. I was in shock. I was dipressed, and sorry I was there to be honest. The gourp was not very friendly either.

I said a prayer in the beggining of the session that God would find some way to be made known in the night. Ironicly enough… about 2 minutes later ONE Christian song was requested, and not one other one through out the night.

I talked to 3 people about my business, and had two takers. One of them is married and from the sound of it a bit up happy… my heart went out to her, I hope that she can salvage her marriage. However she is a funny very attractive girl with low self esteem, my flesh is so easily tempted. I am adding this so that I can not be seen as fake, or holier than thou. I am a sinner, and I am not perfect, I am forgiven and that is good enough for me. I ask for your prayers not only for her and her family, but for me and that my spirit is stronger than my flesh. Not just towards this girl. I find that since I have stopped dating, I am catching myself with a bit of a desire for companionship… not even sex, just someone to share with.

I would blog about my coldstone experience, but something much more important has come up. Marriage! Not mine, but a family member’s. I was talking to this family member last night, and he told me that if need be, he wants me to lie to his wife about where he will be. Now don’t take that as he is cheating on her. No, he is actually doing something potentially as bad, but more subtle. He wants to have time away from his wife. However he doesn’t want to tell her this. Lazy? Very much so. He doesn’t want to put the time and effort into his marriage to make it work. I know where this leads, I walked that very line. I fear for him and her. It is only a matter of time before other things creep in. Or before he doesn’t find in her what he once did, so he needs to find it elsewhere with another. Does he have a bad marriage… not so much, but would I want it? Not on your life.

You should long to spend time with your wife, she is your other half, you should not feel whole without her. No one that I know longs to be half of who they are, or longs to be missing something. So how is it that this has happened in my family?

I can not inform him of this as it will come as a massive insult, however I am not going to lie to his wife either, I will not tell her anything, which may not be any better, but I will not lie to her. Also I am younger, and as such what I have to say holds no value. So then the title question stands. I want to tell him there are sharks in the water before he dives, but without telling him that he is jumping in foolishly.

So monday was a day of umm… well nothing to do really. I was stuck at work cause they need me to be here, and yet there was nothing to do. I went to cold stone again of course. I have strongly considered urging FDA to look into what they put in that stuff. Anyway back to my point. Two Kristens were in there, for sake of clarity I will call one SK (Small Kristen) and the other BK (Big Kristen). SK is the one that I met first and seems to have been working there longer. BK is the one that seems to have a bit of a hard time gauging what should go into my cup of ice cream as everytime she gives me WAY more than I ordered. Not that I am complaining, just commenting on it.

So I go in and they were both there, now I had no way of knowing what problems it would cause me when two of the flirtatious girls would be there at the same time. Only time will tell. So BK is making my ice cream (and using WAY too much again) and SK is making someone elses but since I know her more I start talking to her. This angered BK, she started to glare at SK. Well SK sneaks over to BK when I am not supposed to be noticing and says only charge him 1.50 or something like that. Hard to hear the secret ninja whispers. Then shuffles back to working on her own creation. SK and I continue to talk, and BK continues to glare. Luckily no fights broke out in this time, but things could happen. SK confesses to me that she will be quitting and has already put in her two weeks notice. So, as I am leaving, SK says(in a voice much to loud for a girl her size, and WAY too loud for the store with that many people in it) “Come back and visit me!”. This catches me off gaurd a bit as I have never had that happen, and on top of that…. I have been in there everyday and she knows it.

 So I go home later in the evening and prepare some stuff for the next day, do some reading, some chatting head on over to my mentor’s house. All in all a good time. I come home, and crash.

Let me give you some background I have One father that is responsible for my being here. And then I have another father that had a MAJOR part in my growing up, and now I have a 3rd father, one that I learn from and helps me when I need it, and is also just there for me.

All of the fathers I have are great men. While I didn’t get to spend my day with them, I did get to wish them a happy father’s day. I am thankful to them all, they will continue to play a major part in my life, and my children will be blessed to have grandfather’s such as them.

Saturday I was up and ready to take on the world… okay well not really I was up though. I was preparing for my day in San Diego. I was up the night before till about 4 talking to the woman of my dreams, figuratively and literally. Anyway that was the previous day(in my line of thinking it is not the next day till you wake up, and yes, I am aware that some people are VERY behind). So Saturday I am learning how to take my newest heart test thinger. It tests for the IL1 gene. This is the gene responsible for unexpected heart attacks. And I am almost ready to take it. But not yet. I decide to head out to San Diego, only about 100 miles away. I get in my car and almost instantly need to put out the flames in my skin from the mere heat of the day. As I am driving there I think.. this is silly, I have two cars that have air conditioning and I don’t get to drive either of them. What is up with that? So I call my brother up and tell him I want to use my truck, he says ok. Now the whole reason I am heading out to San Diego is becuase of a business that I am building and one of my mentors is going to be out there, actually two of my mentors are out there. So I get my truck and my nephew and head out to SD. My nephew is very excited about my business and wants to own his own. So I bring him to the meeting I will be attending that day. A blast is had by all, I got to have dinner with one of my mentors and get a lot of information from him while I am there. On the way home my nephew starts sharing his heart with me, and what he would like to do in life, it was very awesome, and it lifted my spirit quite a bit to hear such a young man talk about things so lively, and totally possible that he wants to do.

This was pretty much Saturday, but man was it more awesome than I can get into here.

So, I was in cold stone the other day and what do I find… I find that the girls have been talking and comparing notes on me. Interesting? I find it perhaps a bit scary. Anyway, I walk in and Roxanna tells me that she will be having a new job at this other place, some food place, and gives me all but the address so that I can go there. She then informs me that her friend Kristen has told her that she is givnig me, better hook ups than Roxanna. So of course this has created a bit of a competition between the two. Interesting sure, but I don’t want anyone to get in trouble for giving me discounts and I don’t want two friends to stop talking over some old guy. Makes you wonder though doesn’t it? Why me? What did I do or say, or whatever that made them show their kindness to me?

This happened on friday, I was a bit busy over the weekend so I will blog for Saturday and Sunday also in seperate blogs to keep up with what I said I would.

Thought of the moment: “Why do drinks need parasols? Is it to keep the sun from melting the ice? or to keep rain from watering down your drink?”